a pause

over the weekend, chris went out with the boys to dave and buster's for my brother's birthday.  i relished in the few hours alone with loges.  after playing and spending some fun mother and son time, he tuckered out and took a nap.  i spent my time doing the usual cleaning up. sweeping.  done.  cleaning bottles.  done.  trash out.  yep.  move the laundry along.  check.  i just kept moving.  then i heard them.  the sound of gentle wind chimes dancing in the breeze.  it was my grammie's chimes.  the chimes i had inherited when she passed away a couple of years ago.  it was my one request.  her wind chimes.  i remember her best, sitting outside visiting when i would be in town.  just for a moment. talking outside with my mom and grammie.  with the wind chimes moving in the breeze.  i think of her each time i hear them.  now in my own home.

i made myself stop doing chores and enjoyed the moment.  i went outside to spend some time with my grammie.  it was so peaceful.  i sat alone.   i listened.  i knew she was there with me.  enjoying the bright spring day.  i miss her so much.  i often think of her in life's quiet moments. when logan is sleeping.  when i'm holding him asleep in my arms.  i can't help but wish she had met my precious logan.  but i know she watches over us.  he's had to fight so hard just to be here.  i appreciate that about loges.  his persistence.  i think grammie would have liked that about him too.  love and miss you grammie.